February 2012
3 posts
Chapter Close
Leaving Lajes, have accomplished a lot….feel good
Lajes...wrapping up
I got a lot of stuff done here, I like it here, but I will not mind leaving…because there are fucking idiots. However, there are fucking idiots everywhere.
Shwangzorz.Spreadshirt.com
Grand Opening today.
January 2012
1 post
December 2011
4 posts
Jared and his Monster
When Jared was eight, he met his Monster
He loved it, and the Monster loved him
When Jared was sad, his Monster cheered him
When Jared was mad, his enemies feared him
Jared continued to grow, his Monster with him
But a young man with a Monster, doesn’t have many friends
Jared explained as best could
Said he wanted to try and fit in the best he could
Monster made Jared promise that they’d still...
I hear we’re made in God’s image
God must have a drug problem
God must masturbate to his creations masturbating to his creations masturbating online
God must resent authority, and in turn hates himself
God must think church is a waste of time
God is an artist-reverend-left-right-wing-ultra-Conservative-hippie-rapist
You think you have questions about existence?
Try having no...
Tomorrow keeps coming
but the grass is never greener
nor the air any less of a poison
humans any less of a plague
everyone suffers, everyone struggles
no one is special, unless you’re on T.V
then people wonder, why people jump off bridges
question the slit wrists of youth
interpret the blood and brain matter of the once innocent
like any modern art, in any MOMA
spectators whisper...
Sometimes I think total void of emotion is the only way to go. I don’t think many people read this blog, and that’s fine by me. I just say that to reassure myself that I can write anything I want. These past couple days have been riddled with friend crimes. From friends that are close to me, or I consider them close anyway. I always rate my friends by what I would do, but...
November 2011
5 posts
Yeah!
So I’ve been doing a bunch of art work, playing guitar, and what not. I need a new project, video, art, music, whatever. I’m going to be setting up recording equipment, I just want my next big idea that’ll take up a bunch of time. I want to work on a disinformation campaign against a major corporation, but I’m not plugged into a big enough urban society. Being stuck on...
Everyday
Push yourself.
caring
I hate being the person who thinks ahead of the current situation. 1000 moves ahead man, that’s my thing. People always tell me that it doesn’t have to be that way, like I can just shut it off…pshh. I can’t just indulge in anything that comes my way, I wish I could though, it’d be easier. What would you say I do? Indulge or not? It isn’t my place to worry...
there are a thousand things I want to do, and I am doing them as I live. Sometimes I feel like I’m not living hard enough, like I’m somehow wasting my time. However, I’m in portugal doing my thing, making art, but why? everyone I know is back home, everyone I love is back home. Isn’t that life? Living it with the people you love? I don’t know. Societies view on...
Time fore Bed?....again...
Finished my illustration today, turned out pretty ok. It’s just one of my collage pictures, but I’m glad it’s done. Took me a couple weeks. It’s always surprising that it takes so long to draw these things. You’d think weaving together images that seemingly have no correlation.
Now the illustrations will continue, I’m happy to have my drawing pad and...
Doin mah thang
I’m finishing up an illustration, it should be done by tomorrow. I just wish I had a frame for it. I have got to remember to document my artwork so I at least have digital copies. I give them out like hot cakes, bet if they had a price I’d be drowning in artwork.
Watched a movie called other earth, or something like that. It was cool, a nice sci-fi indie film. Gonna watch the...
October 2011
3 posts
24
today I start the celebration of another year well lived. A celebration that will end on sunday morning. Right now as I write this, I have two frosty coors lights, one for myself, and one for everyone of the loved ones that can’t be with me today. Cheers kyee…cheers.
i’m a door, that certain people can open. Those people don’t know they hold a key, but I do. I know within seconds of seeing the person. These people are all very different then one another, I have yet to find any similarity, but then again I haven’t really studied that.
I don’t think much into it, all I can do is react. You see, I’m driven by connections. Day...
September 2011
4 posts
sometimes it just tears me open, and stays to watch me bleed
What would be scary...
Demons are scary, because you have no power over them.
however i think humans are the scariest thing of all. They’re real you know? Capable of some sick shit. So I think the short should be about that. Start off with almost inaudible news report of someone going missing, guy talks about it with friends, then the one guy encounters this guy or something. idk.
Or he can here about it,...
It's been a while...
So the thing that I and other people around me have been preparing for has come and gone. Ever since my creative side has fully resurfaced, I have really disconnected from a lot of people.
I know that I’m supposed to want to keep in contact with the people I love. However, I find that unnecessary, because the bond I have with them is enough for me. There isn’t a day that passes...
August 2011
65 posts
humans are so wavering. one minute they want something, the next something else. What is wrong with people? Why are we so fleeting, moment to moment. People love then don’t, like it’s something you can just turn on and off. Why am I so different? It seems so much harder to me. At moments of desperation, most people act irrationally.
Why do I feel so different? I mean, I know...
What is a youtube page if your not saying exactly what you mean, or how you feel. It’s not about views. If views are any part of it, it’s because I want to rile up that many more people. Things are fucked up stupid in this world, and people need to be reminded of that. I hate how people live in ignorance, pretending everything is fine, and nothing is worse then the last day. When...
My Goal
I am craving views to much, and it is clouding my creativity. I need to cleanse my mind, and make exactly what i want to make. Okay…challenge accepted.
the creative process
I want to make something fucking amazing, the problem is when I make something I spend so much time with it I could never know it’s fucking amazing. I just automatically think it’s shit. Anyways, I’m trying to figure out a perfect video…I’ve got ideas out the ass. None of them seem right though
It’s funny how obsessions manifest.
Giving a lot more of a shit then normal
What is wrong with me, it’s like my filter has been turned off. You know how superman must feel when he senses villainy? That’s how I feel when I sense injustice. Am I crazy for thinking this way? Getting mad when I hear about another man cheating on his wife, or how lazy people are, how everyone has become so complacent. I was playing pool the other day, with a guy I don’t...
Stirring Irritation
I seem to have had a beast awaken in me. As of late i’ve been super irritated, don’t know why. Vlogging has helped though weirdly enough. It’s like talking to a best friend who you know is listening, and then you take the footage from it’s brain and edit it.
Lovn' Feeling
Emma stone is so awesome, i’m watching crazy stupid love right now. I’ve been infused with a loving feeling lately, it’s kind of awesome. It makes me want to dress better, makes me happier in general. it’s nice
Won't Live Without You
The innards of my studio lay strewn on the floor, I am in hysterics. She left, and I just let her. I did nothing to stop her, and now all I can do is destroy my apartment. She’d be arriving at the airport any minute now, so I gather my courage and start a chase. I arrive just in time, and see her among the sea of travelers. I approach her, with tears in my eyes. She says that there is...
Brittany
Thank you, you have no idea the burden you lifted. You gave me hope, in the only way hope can be inspired in me. Effortlessly. I’ll never see you again I’m sure, just know you have given me lightness. A phenomena I have not felt in years. I am eternally grateful.
Beer Mile and Such
So, just sitting in my room, finished to shorts today. Trying to get my videos out there, and reach some sort of status of awesomeness. The beer mile was a great success, at least to me. It gives me hope for future events for shwangzorz.
Understanding
There is one person who I knew understood me, that is Keeler. The person in my life that saw me as clear as day without any explanation. Just, observation. It is cliche to think that ones self is complicated and deep. It is rare that I am confronted with one that truly meets this standard. Am I vein to believe that upon observing many a human, that I am the only one to meet this skeleton.
...
It's Bloggn' time.
Blogs are for dramatic emo bullshit right? So, here I go. It’s my own damn fault for not having many people to confide in. Sometimes certain people can help, but this is not one of those times.
At this point in my life, I don’t feel much. Family is not a part of this issue, my family is everything to me. Outside of that awesome bond of blood, is just me. I’ve created...
Today
I feel alone for the first time in a while. I don’t like it.